tired

its really a stressful life here...everyday have a lot of assignment,presentation which related to my education to do...somemore exam every week,i have to study hard to achieve a good result.if failed to do so..need to pay a lot to reseat the test.....otherwise,still have lot job to do in the workplace..want do of 3D design for my engineer......and have to publish all the marketing stuff....its realy tired....even weekend,i still have to rush my work....whole night didnt sleep,cause wana rush a lot work....this morning 7am only have time to take a nap...sigh......i miss malaysia life very much........i hate this kind of life

feel so sorry to my mum...yesterday chat with her in a rude way...because i am very pek chek and confusing with my life now,...yet nothing can i do and just hide it up....i just can cry in the bathroom...actuslly i am very weak....why i should pretend as very tough woman?i don't understand......even a tough a strong woman also need a husband or a boyfriend to rely...yet now i don't have both of them...who can borrow me your shoulder to let me lay for a couple minutes?a couple minutes its enough...........let me charge my battery first,then i can operate well very soon.

the malaysia's national day is around the corner,unfortunate i am not in malaysia now....maybe to all my friends in malaysia don't have any feeling with merdeka day....somemore will be happy cause can get a FOC holiday...but to me.....the feeling is different....i miss malaysia very much....i miss my friends,my family very much.......i am afraid of have the same feeling in chinese new year...you guys can gather with your family celebrate chinese new year,but i not able to do so...i believe next year chinese new year which drop on 14 february(valentine day),i will feel very lonely......i afarid of that depressed feeling.......